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  posted by tokitikki @ 11:39 PM

 
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  posted by tokitikki @ 1:04 PM

 
"Realizing our spiritual nature is the highest and greatest good of human existence."

True or False?


Not even a question! There is no 'true or false'. The presumptuousness!

First things first – the usage of the word “our” implies that the speaker is a human and therefore: imperfect, fallible, gullible, stupid, immature, greedy, self-serving, materialistic and … just like everyone else. It is simply not possible for a single person to speak for the whole of existence, no matter how spiffy you may find yourself. Unless, of course, there is a god, and you happen to him, her or it.

EVEN THEN, however, the question and your ‘right answer’ would merely be your own OPINION.

Your Spiritual Nature is a personal thing; it cannot be shared or replicated by anyone else. You may not consider it the greatest good of your OWN existence, much less anyone else’s. The actual act of realization may also not rank high on your to – do list, for that matter.

It’s shit like this I used to get fed up with in school. This is not a test, or a quiz; this is not something you can take and learn from, unless it’s debate class. But even then, there is no finite answer; no final counter-point to be made that can ‘win’ the match.

As hard as it is for me to accept, there are a lot of ignorant people in the world who would circle “yes” and accept that as the final answer, close the book and move on with their lives. It’s these people I choose not to surround myself with, but unfortunately, I seem to run into them when I run out to get sushi and pick up milk.

I like the question. I have ideas that grow out of that question, and I accept and cherish my ability to do that. But to actually offer two options, one of which is expected to be the correct answer…that just stupefies me.


  posted by tokitikki @ 11:50 AM

 
1. What's one thing you've always wanted to do, but never have?

be completely and totally selfish, even if it means that someone might not like it. There's always something keeping me from focusing on what I want, regardless. I always have responsibilities and priorities that interfere.

2. When someone asks your opinion about a new haircut/outfit/etc, are you always honest?

yes, because I'd rather tell them they look stupid than actually GO OUT with them looking stupid. People get over that stuff as long as you have a skill called *TACT*. But if you don't have that...be quiet.

3. Have you ever found out something about a friend and then wished you hadn't? What happened?

There are many things that fall into the realm of Too Much Information, but I can't say I've ever wished I didn't know something about someone. That would be like wanting to change them in some way.

4. If you could live in any fictional world (from a book/movie/game/etc.) which would it be and why?

ARGH! That one is soooo hard for a person who LOVES books! Depending on my status in the world and extenuating circumstances, I would have to say Kaleer from The Black Jewels trilogy, or quite possibly Selium from 'Green Rider'.

5. What's one talent/skill you don't have but always wanted?

The ability to grant my own wishes.

  posted by tokitikki @ 11:25 AM

 
Once again, I'm in a funky mood, and when I'm like this, music tends to take on different meanings. I'm listening to Pearl Jam's "Better Man" and I keep getting distracted from work.

Waitin', watchin' the clock
It's four o'clock, it's got to stop
Tell him, take no more
She practices her speech, as he opens the door
She rolls over
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over

1-She lies and says she's in love with him
Can't find a better man
She dreams in color, she dreams in red
Can't find a better man, can't find a better man
Ohh

Talkin', to herself there's no one else
Who needs to know
She, tells herself, oh...

Memories back when she was bold and strong
And waiting for the world to, come along
Swears she knew it, now she swears he's gone
(rpt 1)

She lies and says she still loves him
Can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better man

She loved him, yeah...
She don't want to leave this way
She feeds him, yeah
That's why she'll be back again

Can't find a better man...

I've interpreted this song differently through the years. At first, I thought that it was about abuse (and it might be). I've thought about it more in terms of expressing the difficulties of leaving the "good guy" even though the relationship is very, very unfulfilling. "She dreams in colors, she dreams in red", I take to mean that she is passionate and adventurous but feels trapped in an unfulfilling relationship.

The song is about...a woman. Who has lived her life WAITING for that "guy" the one she is satisfied with to whisk her away and make her life the "fairy tale" she has always wanted. She is strong, she hasn't lost it. She is just merely settling with the guy she has handed her self over to. She is just sad because she realizes that her life isn't where it should be. She needs more, expects more. Better yet, demands it. She dreams in color, because her life is dull and black and white. It is depressing to be living an ordinary life. She practices the speech because she realizes his heart will break, she has been in this situation before. He looks her over because he is the one who is truely in love. Yet, she doesnt care, she is sleeping, where her dreams keep her sane. SHE can find a better man, but realizes the position she has gotten herself in. The repetition of "Better man" is a hint, that she can find one but doesnt have the strength to let go of this "comfort zone"...

on a side note...don and I have broken up, which is very hard on me. he's at the apartment until he figures out where he's going to stay, and I'm staying with friends. I'm doing some soul-searching and finding ways to find myself again, so the next few months are going to be tough, but okay. As much as I hate to say it, I think I'll be postponing my trip until I know I'm only going for one reason, and not running from another. I don't want to mess up a good thing by dragging my problems along with me.

  posted by tokitikki @ 10:54 AM

 
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Smile


  posted by tokitikki @ 1:43 PM

 
1. How many times have you truly been in love?

I thought it a few times, but when it ended I realized I was just infatuated. I’ve learned to love, but not be in love until it just happens…don’t force the IN love part. But loving is what we all need a bit more of anyways

2. What was/is so great about the person you love(d) the most?

Just…everything. I don’t have enough room on this website to go through every minute detail about him. He knows it and that’s enough for me. I tell him as often as I get a chance. Which, hopefully, averages about twice every five minutes.

3. What qualities should a significant other have?

The things you didn’t know you were searching for. Things that would never occur to you, but that just seem right when you meet that someone. The other half of my brain and my heart.

4. Have you ever broken someone's heart?

I’ve been told that, but as much as it hurt me to think I did, I had to realize that they were just words hurled at me by a very hurt person who didn’t know any other way to lash out. I can honestly say I’ve never broken someone’s heart, just hurt their feelings for a while. When it’s not right, you don’t like it ending, but you move on because it’s the best thing to do.

5. If there were one thing you could teach people about love, what would it be?

Some things I think you have to learn on your own. I would hate to take away from someone else’s experience by staining it with some of my own. A recommendation would be: Don’t waste it. Don’t throw it away. Live like it’s your last night on earth. Now if I could follow my own advice, I’d be thrilled.


  posted by tokitikki @ 3:30 PM